I'm sick, sick with this illness called life.

I’ve waited and waited for this. I knew one day, or at least I hoped that one day I would get this from him. A simple text, call, acknowledgement. Now I have it, I wish he didn’t. I’m with Mike, and I’m starting to get over it. Started to move on and forget and like fuck. Now I don’t want to start anything. I always said I’d be your friend, maybe if you gave me the chance. But now I think it can’t happen. 

Cory has gotten ahold of me. I woke up to a text that says hey from him.

I think I’m going to be sick.

The most important thing I’ve been waiting for has finally happened, and now that it has, I wish it didn’t.

I don’t know if I should respond or just ignore it completely. I don’t want to hear what he has to say. Anymore.

We went on a walk, because mandi was over for his brother and tylers ‘party’ lol which tyler puked on his phone. but we walked and he asked “So, what are we?” I dunno” I called you my girlfriend today… Really? Yeah, at work. You were tlaking about me? mhm because they wanted me to stay late but i said i couldnt bc i was hanging out with my girlfriend. Soo you should ask me. I am. Oh, okay. :D

all cute and stuff,.

I asked him what he liked about me. He said I’m adorable. I have a nice smile, we have similar interests. I told him I have a lot of problems, but if he’ll accept them then okay. he aske dlike what. i said it was hard for me to get over my ex. then we both talked about it. I told him i like how I fee llike i could tell him anything. im not worrried about it. usually i think about somethig for awhile before saying it, but with him  im not afraid to just blurt out anything random that doesnt even have anything to do with what we are talking about and i dont have to worry about him thinking im weird.

He remembers everything. I feel like there’s no real connection. What do we have in common?

Criss Angel. Sailor Moon. Beauty and the Beast. Anarchy symbols. Inuyasha. Chronicles of Narnia, Peter <3 Punk. The posers killed it. Prison Break. Steve Irwin. Ska. Toygers. Philly love park. 

Saturday, May 28th. Matt texted me asking if I wanted to come over, he was watching his neighbors house. He got out of work early and I went over. We played cod together and then went swimming. I gave him a massage. We played one in the chamber. I lost my gauge. We went in and he carried me in. Yeah. Went to Weis. Came back. Yeah. It was good. I mean really good. Then we talked for over an hour, out on the porch and then when it started to rain inside in the kitchen. It was cute. I left at 3:30.

I still think of you.

I saw Mr. T yesterday and he said he saw you the other day at the gas station. He said I was a lovely person and if he’s being stupid then whatever.

Today Daisy said corn, that she liked corn. To Eric. And all I could think of was, you know.

Then there is Mike. I’m happy talking with him. When I laid with him it flooded my memory of you. 

You know you’re important to me when I blog about you.